Argh! Feeling like a old women, seen through life, bleak about the future. I'm so worn out mentally!

Only at age 24 but I feel the weight of life on my shoulders. Its so depressing not knowing what to do, not knowing where the passion lies. I've lost my zest, my motivation for the things I do, to the point that I'm even thinking of giving up on the clarinet and on band. 

Everything is no longer the same as before. My heart aches whenever I step into the bandroom. Too many memories, too many. Never did I know that it actually matters so much to me, its not as if I can put it all down at will. I have probably been escaping from it for the past 2 years and now, its time to face my feelings honestly. Life is a joke.