1.5 weeks to FYP report submission and 3 weeks to end of undergraduate life YET I do not feel the excitement to it!

Time passed and I have been working in the research lab for close to 1 year now. I see familiar faces everyday, do the same things daily (set reaction, work-up, column...), go for lunch for 11 am and tea break at 4 pm and doing silly things with crazy people, so much so that everyday is a routine. However, slowing and silently, this routine lifestyle had settled in me that I'm starting to feel lost thinking of what to do after that 3 weeks. I'm already starting to miss my friends and the lab thinking about this.

I think fate is very amazing and play tricks on people such that you may know this person for a long time but it is only until the last couple of months before everything ends that you became close friends, a friend whom you find comfort with, friend who guides you, who inspires and motivates you, who do crazy things with you. I found such a friend and I'm very glad. I want to continue spending time with this friend and I'm feeling sad knowing the chances of doing so after 3 weeks would be close to zero. A couple of days ago, this friend told me 'I'll be back to my world alone doing _ _ _ _ and _ _ _ _ after I leave. So sad.' At this instant, I felt happy knowing that this friend treasures me. I wanted to say 'I'll miss you very much' but I did not; and I think I should to tell her I treasure her too.

This longing and relunctance to move on made me harbor the thought of going back to the lab to work while hunting for a job. But of course, it isn't as easy as thinking about it. It very much depends on the supervisor as well as extra funds for hiring me. I feel the emptiness thinking about 3 week's time that I'm striving to enjoy every moment in the lab now, so much so that I do not feel like stopping work (with or w/o choice) and focus on report writing.

Whatever happens in the future, I'm glad that I found joy working in this lab and people. I hope everything that is planned out for me will be a good one!