It been a long long time since the last blog entry. Blame it on exam stress or whatever else, I'm suddenly filled with thoughts and I guess I'll just whack it all out here.

How do I start.. Well, I feel that humans are isolated and lonely after all. Though they always say friends, family and the someone special will be there for you when you need them, at the end of the day, its all up to your own self, whether or not you'll be able to stand up again. I'm very sure when I make this statement.

Emotions - boon or bane? No idea and I'm just as confused. Emotions... Can you show that you are sad when you feel it or do you have to keep them to yourself? If you are allowed to express them, can you just express unhappiness to anyone or must there be a careful selection? Family.. Most of us do not share any problems with them. Friends, the probability increases but I guess its all about timing. Someone special, though you are supposed to or can I say entitiled to, I've learned that its not any useful as well. Even if you do express them, it may not be receptive as well. For one there will be a possibility of being ignored or two, your emotion may be seen as insignificant as compared to things they've done by getting replies like 'I've been doing my best already...etc...' Okie. So at the very end, I have to learn to be strong. To put it crudely yet true, no one can help you except yourself. You'll rather depend on yourself if you have to depend on others. Bingo? Is this really how it should work? I do not know. Will this really make you happier or add on to the problem? Is there a better way out to this? Communication...Character... Being stubborn all play a part I guess. I'm just so confused. I sort of see the solution to the problem but getting there is like so tough. So close yet so far. Tried and at the very end, give up cause its too difficult to achieve. How do I go about it?