My mind is set into thinking once again. There are some things which I just dun understand, your way of doing things and your thinking. Perhaps, its better this way. Perhaps this is the path laid out for me to redeem myself and stop doing the wrong things.

Seriously, I think I do know what I'm doing all this while is wrong. I still remember very clearly how terrible it was one month ago when my conscience keep looking me up and how helpless I felt. It was really a tough period. You'll never imagine how much tears I've shed everyday and night, and all you said was there's nothing you could do and keep telling me not to think so much. At that point in time(even now) I feel really silly and stupid. Why did I land myself in such a position? I dun know when my conscience will start creeping in again and start the depressing days. I just know that I never want that to happen again. I admit I'm not a person with strong willpower and I get swayed easily. And this time, I really need to gather all my willpower and support from friends to do this right. Tell me what I'm doing is right and I will be able to do it.

ps: Pls dun try (in any way) to ask me what happened but give me your support alright.